What to write, have got no words.

Am i wrong? for trying to think that we will have a better future ? for thinking that we will rise from this hell fire? for thinking that there's still goodness in my country? for thinking that i can have my right to speak ? for thinking that one day, we will have justice? for thinking that i am right, and whatever i see in my country, is nothing but a mere illusion of hatred and sorrow? for thinking that my country is no different than other well established and renowned countries of the world?
If i am wrong, which people tend to believe i am, then i dont want to know the truth! i dont want to read the facts, i want to live in this dream because this dream helps me breathe , because I cant live knowing that my country is dying and i am on the other end of the world peacefully typing a blog and theres nothing i can do about it.